I don't know why I'm still awake.
I don't know why I wasn't productive this week. I have no excuse except that I was tired. But I'm always tired, and because I didn't get enough work done, this week is going to be even longer than it needs to be. Which isn't a great idea.
I'm going home for spring break though, hopefully that will be nice. I'm glad I'll get to spend time with my family at least. Even if it is weird without Grandma.
I wish I had more motivation. I wish I were stronger when it came to doing things for myself. Even things I know I should be doing. Like doing my homework, studying, working out so I don't feel so fat all the time.
I'm trying to be more positive, thats something for lent, but I'm having a real hard time. I just get in these funks sometimes and don't know how to get myself out of them.
I don't get myself.
And how the hell will i find a job, an apartment, what if I end up someplace I don't want to be? Or someplace by myself? I need money. I need to find these things but it doesn't look good.